Who amongst us hasn’t had a ‘weight loss/ fitness’ new year’s resolution at least once in his lifetime?
I know I have.. plenty of times! Ironically, I never really followed it through, so the resolution kept showing up on my list every year for the past 7 years. Why? Let’s just say I never felt motivated enough, or never had the strong will to actually.. well.. ‘do it’.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t consider myself overweight, but I think it’s safe to say that I would feel way more comfortable in my skin if I were to lose around 10-15Kgs in total. That would put me at an average BMI of around 18.5, which is almost at the lower limit of normal. I am currently at 63Kg for 163cm.
You might be familiar with ‘ohhh but I worked so hard today, I don’t feel like cooking anything.. I’ll just order something’ thinking it will only be for that one night, but as it turns out eventually, every night becomes ‘that’ night. I can’t even go into the excuses I make to convince myself why it was okay that I didn’t go the gym, or even ‘home-exercise’. You want to know what was the result of all that? Gaining 13Kgs in 7 years, going up so many dress sizes, and just feeling bad about myself. It became a vicious cycle actually; the more I was down or feeling bad about myself, the more I indulged in the nonsense excuses, and the avalanche was just growing bigger and bigger.
This year, I decided to give it my all! No more excuses. If I wanted to reach my wonderland, I had to start somewhere. A healthy, and happy me, with.. well.. awesome abs and glutes, is one of the major things in that magical land of mine. So I considered my fitness/weight loss journey as step 1 towards Wonderland.
I actually got myself a training program with a diet plan, and really embarked on my first ‘mission impossible’ – so to speak. It was going great and steady, with amazing results only few weeks in. Only then, my will and motivation had to be tested! I had a severe injury to my shoulder during a ski trip, and had to stop all kinds of activities – until further notice. It was truly depressing! It still is. Having to just sit at home, and not be able to do anything is NOT easy. It is safe to say that the few kgs I lost during the first few weeks were back right where they were.
It was my husband that gave me the needed motivation at that point. He fabricated a kind of sling covered in towels, to hold my shoulder in place, yet absorb the sweat in case there were any. He took me to gym with him, and helped me to figure out some routine that would only make use of the lower body, and doesn’t require any shoulder or upper body movements. Since then, it has been, as my husband and I like to call it, “Leg-day everyday”.
Nutrition wise, it still isn’t even close to ideal, but I am truly trying.
I resume work beginning next week, so in addition to an injured shoulder, I also have a hectic schedule to work my daily exercises and correct nutrition into. I am not throwing in the towel just yet. Hopefully not ever! I decided to take the Step 1 towards Wonderland, and I truly want to follow it through. Let’s see how it goes.